My relationship with my camera: Free Write

Something about a camera has always felt safe and comfortable to me.  I love my camera.  I love taking photos.  I do not, however, love being in front of the camera.  I’ve always struggled with this.  Sure, I can be goofy in front of a camera with my friends, but I’ve never been comfortable with posing or even being serious.  I find this strange because I have taken so many photographs of so many different people.  I know exactly what to tell them to do and yet, my mind goes blank when I step in front.

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In most of my self portraits, there is a camera in front of my face.  This is almost a comfort zone for me.  I feel like it also represents me more accurately.  I would much rather be, and usually am, behind a camera instead of posing for it.  And if I’m not behind a camera in the self portrait, I’m with either my trumpet or a piano.  Both of those are also places I find comfort, however, nothing compares to the sense of “safety” a camera gives me.


Another way I ease the pressure of self portraits in to position the camera to take an indirect picture.  This can be done mirrors, shadows, and other techniques of that nature.  This way, I’m not staring directly into the camera.


How this photograph changed my life


I took this photography during the summer of 2008 in Paris.  It is a view from the inside of the clock at the Museé d’Orsay.  The photo is completely black and white and the print is 20”x30”.  This was the first time I took a photograph and thought of it as “art”. Before this, I had taken “artsy” photos, but nothing I was truly in love with.  After I starting thinking about this photo more and more, I decided I really wanted to learn more about photography and really start working with it.  During my senior year of high school, I took a digital photography class and learned all about the technical aspects of photography.  I got my first DSLR camera as a graduation present from my parents and that’s when I launched into my photography filled life.  Once I got to college, I started my own small photography business.  I started by just selling prints of my work.  Eventually, I started getting offers to do photoshoots for weddings and senior recitals.  While shooting people is exciting, I still love the art of going out in nature and finding beauty instead of staging it.  It always brings me back to that day in the art museum in France when I decided to check out a less crowded.  In doing so I found a beautiful view of the Seinne River and Paris through a giant clock.